the jhumka

I lost it! I lost my jhumka! One from the pair the other one is still there. I searched and searched and searched

And I woke up again, in sweat teary eyed..again from the dream that still remains incomplete.

 Ten years ago, I remember exactly .. we  stood on marine drive , we were in a crowd but we felt like only the two of us stood in this universe we were in mad love afterall.

 That jhumka was the one I wanted, since months , he new it .. I don't know where he got it , but he did

 take these' he said 'they would look so good on you' I looked at his hands, a small box, what is it?

 'earrings' your favourite jhumkas

I happily did , offcourse I too had something for him it's so typical of me , he knew it ,

obviously it was a book 

Wrapped in a soft pink paper.

We knew we both had something to say

There was just one question.

And the box of ring he carried in his bag , I knew it.. he does a bad job at hiding things . I see it often when he asks me to get something from his bag

But sometimes I was afraid it wasn't for me 

I too had a box of ring in my bag

Just so when he does actually propose, I have a ring aswell

He said , wear these earrings tommorow , and meet me , right here 

I knew we both were thinking of the exact same thing

I stood on the Marines next day , wearing them and waited .. and waited

But he never came

I wait everyday..

But he never comes

I still hope he comes one day 

To meet me at the Marines 

When I stand here wearing his , and offcourse my favourite jhumkas

I wear them everyday , everywhere.. it's his only memory afterall. But today I feel particularly lonely 

Just like this jhumka

Finding the other one

Incomplete without the other one

Meaningless without the other one

I had his number, but I never bothered to call

I was afraid I'd get no answer

I still hope he calls me one day , or comes at the Marines.

And I kept looking at the cold ocean 

And the warm summer breeze 

And the star in the sky looking down at me , shining like the pearl on my jhumka..

I should start accepting that I'm never going to find the other jhumka

Nor him , he is my whole world but I should let go 

And move on

Just as I turned 

I realised I was crying

But I was too heartbroken to care

I lost love 

Ten years ago 

I lost everything

Love

I realise how expensive it is

When you lose your person